My Darling 

I had been thinking about us ..

You being you …

Me being with you I explored connection..like our souls  are both dancing to the same celestial rhythm  . 

I feel tenderness and lightness with you ..there is a deep emotional intimacy..I am asking myself where it came from ..We called it Divine ..but I am as you know me wanna delve into that ..

We were once lost , without a compass to guide us .. 

Then when i found you / you found me …or fate’s gentle hands guided us to each other .

All  of my life’s intimate feelings held for you were erupted to the surface , all that pain ,longing,and love .

I found my refuge.  As if every cell in my body has been waiting for you.

With you I feel safe .

I am comfortable in your presence. And there is this electricity of shared glances and gentle touches . 

How your hands embrace , hold and dance in my hands… like a ballet dancer  . 

The spark in you that ignites primal things within me ..

When I share my breath in your presence, I feel a soothing rhythm that calms my soul and brings me back to the joy of looking at you.

With you…I feel I am SEEN . I feel I can let down my guard . I shed down the masks I wear for the world..

With you I stop striving or performing..I am me ,without fear of rejection ..

Mind me of anticipating the excitement of reuniting with you . 

Mind me being ill of cold . And of you .

Sometimes, I just wanna feel home in your arms . 

Sometimes, I want you to feel home in my arms .

Sometimes i want your heartbeats to be my own rhythm. 

Sometimes i just wanna be lost in the galaxies of your eyes 

I cherish the moments when our hearts melt together . This ecstasy of being ONE . and the vulnerability of merging yourself with body and soul into someone you feel safe and loved with..

Unconditional belonging ..

I found my true self ,my one place in this world .

I am grateful for my journey with Love.

In the past I used to think that what is called love only exists in a romantic relationship with another person.

/Now, my perceptions  about love, and inadvertently everything else, has changed.
Love became an integral way of flowing congruently in the momentum of my life.

/Love comes to be a way of showing up in reality, in facing some harsh realities we are living.
Fact is i have to get up so early, and sleep early as well. If i didn’t get up with love and hope, how would i ever go on with my day!

/ Working out after this long day might feel like a punishment, but love evolves the relation between my body and my mind and makes them push each other forward, instead of holding back.

/The concept of searching for a meaning for my life would become pointless and even discouraging if i am not aware about my self worth, and have the adequate self compassion.


/Self control and discipline have no meaning without loving the self you are controlling so you are letting it go as far as it can go, giving it  the sense of direction in the right way.


/Love empowers saying no to things you don’t value. Love empowers passions and interests. Love writes poems, and speaks of the tiny miracles. Love paints eyes with kindness.
/Love is the manifestation of how God is present in  reality.
Hatred, depression, and anxiety are the manifestations of the endless journey with ourselves, not with others, not with reality, not with God, not with the devil.
This  journey where we meet everything we learned , and with love unlearn it.

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‘Kidding ‘

A remarkable series by Jim Carrey, where he discusses indirectly  his own experience in life, I think, in the most compassionate, an actor can reflect on his own life, way written yet. Grateful for the emotions I felt while watching it. I felt grief, joy, misery, enjoyment, love, happiness which is the most weird combination you can feel while watching something, also as a cinema lover it was so much fun watching those amazing cuts, production design, and the brilliant acting of Jim, Frank Langella and others. Grateful for actors in their eighties, sixties, and fifties who still give their best to the acting carrer. I love when I sense discipline, dedication in other people, thus adds a lot to their value for me, and teach me more about self respect and contiuos endeavors towards better things. Grateful for the inspiration, the blessings that came with fine drama that reflects on your soul like a meditation in life  and a prayer for the salvation of your own heart. 

God is closer to us than our last breath

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Grateful for the piece of nature I enjoyed this week, sometimes through smiling when seeing the sunset and sunrise because it reminds me of how beautiful is the world I am living in, and how simply I can find beauty around me, other times when I sense how beautiful is the scene of tree’s green leafs with the blue sky in the background while walking to the grocery store.

Grateful for what is working in my life. Grateful that I can pay my bills because this gives me a sense of autonomy, and I think this   Is an important thing to feel in my journey to be a grounded mature person. Also, it is giving me more wisdom during the process of making decisions, and in a way a path to the journey of being a responsible person.



Grateful for what is working in my life. My writing is helping me feel better gives me contentment and fulfillment because it helps me connect the dots , and sometimes may help or inspire others. My writing is making me discern contemplate, ponder over what I really want in my life because through writing I am able to ask the most provocative questions, that no one would ask  except myself. My writing might be in sometimes insightful, meaningful which helps me grow through learning about myself and the world.



Grateful for what is working in my life. My endeavors are improving my life because this is how I find the meaning of living now, right in this place, right in this moment.


Grateful for what is working in my life. My friendships that had been a great learning  experience along the years because it helped me to discover myself through pondering over interpersonal

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Grateful for today.


Grateful for special moments. Grateful for this moment when my grandfather opened an old family  photo album, and started telling the story of each person in there because i felt more intimate  to my past, and that is helping me complete my distorted, or may be weak, identity to the family. Grateful for being aware of the importance of family bonds. Grateful for being there for my grandparents because, I believe, they need at this period of their lives to be heard, to talk, to laugh, to remember, to interact, they also need to confirm the purpose of their lives,which might be raising their kids, giving them the best they can give, and being good parents, through telling me how they lived, how they raised their children, what circumstances have they faced!. Grateful for these free lessons offered by life..

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®️ My dad who has forgiven me for a lot of mistakes i have done in the past.


®️My daily commute to work, and the time i am given to right my journal and listen to music.


®️Treadmills. I love this way of exercising because it gives me some time to call my family on messenger and it doesn’t affect the quality of the exercise.



®️My bed room. The carpets, the wardrobe, the desk, a door with blue glass. My pillow and blanket.


®️ My endless funny conversations with no beginning and no ending with my close friends.

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🪻🪻🪻🪻🪻Meditations on a Birthday 🪻🪻

Grateful for today.

Today is my birthday. I lived well and sound for 34 years.


✨✨✨✨✨Older ✨✨✨✨✨✨


I am getting older, but wiser and happier.

I am educating myself the value of pain and the beauty of things happening. I am teaching myself lessons about patience, and I am listening to the sound of seconds passing.


I am mulling over the essence of being without disturbing the euphoric presence of actual life. I am trying
trying
trying
To lose myself hundreds of times before I accidentally find it.

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My body is getting leaner. My senses are getting sharper. The realms beyond music are my lands, and the feelings between notes are my flowers.

My thoughts are getting clearer, and my goals
became more present. I am seeking the wisdom from the tears of bitterness ,and the laughter of sheer Joy.I am creating my inner path to freedom .


My freedom became my routines,my freedom became my attitude,my freedom became my cycle of thoughts , my freedom became my taste of music ,my freedom became how I choose to perceive the world ,my freedom became my mercy,my freedom became how I walk ..
My freedom became how I feel ,my freedom became how I smile
I guess,I became my freedom.


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🪻🪻🪻🪻🪻🪻New 🪻🪻🪻🪻🪻🪻🪻
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New, new, new
Everything new, new, new, new


I’m ready to go
Ready for more
I’m ready for new
Like it’s straight out the store
You already know
I’m ready to flow
I’m ready to move, the old is through
I’m in pappa’s new bag and it still got them tags
And you know that they’re new

Midnight, new heart
I got that new start
New life, new day
It’s my life, His way
New praise, new look
New page, new book
New flight, burn up
New wine, turn up
Looked at my hands, they look brand new
Looked at my feet, they look new too
New joy, new strength
Lovin’ this newness (Loving this)
Past tense, long gone
Some sing a new song





🌲🌲🌲🌲🌲Farewell🌲🌲🌲🌲🌲🌲

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On the same day I entered this world, I acknowledge that someday I will depart it. In this gratitude journal, I bid farewell to those who have been dear to me.

Farewell to my beloved parents, whose love and guidance have shaped me.

Farewell to my cherished friends, who have shared laughter and tears along the way.

Farewell to the delightful moments I have experienced in my various activities.

Farewell to the warm embrace of the morning sun, which has greeted me each day.

Farewell to the awe-inspiring beauty of nature that has captivated my senses.

Farewell to the treasured memories we have created together.

I acknowledge the impermanence of the body, the mind, and the thoughts that have accompanied me on this journey.

Farewell to the hymns that have touched my soul.

Farewell to the lessons that have shaped my character.

Farewell to the places I have visited, which have broadened my horizons.

In this moment, I say “enough” to today and embrace the fleeting nature of existence. I cherish the present because everything will eventually fade away.
Happy birthday to me .

Happy life to me .

Five reasons that makes me feel fortunate today :
2022
– I am living another year.
– My parents are in good health.
– I have a pleasant companionship.
– I am employed.
– I am in love with my life.


2024

✔️I breathe,I have lungs . I digest food ,I can chew food ,I have strong teeth. I can smile.I can swallow food ,I have a tongue that makes my speech happen.


✔️I have the best family ever ,my mom is taking care of my dad,and he is taking care of her .They are taking care of my brother,and he is taking care of them . My grandmother has been taking care of me during ny childhood ,we took care of her when she got old ,and now she is living in our hearts .


✔️I met the vest people anyone can meet .I met myself ,I met my friends,I met my family,I met strangers that made feel close .

✔️ I heard beautiful voices ,that i will never forget .







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