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Gratitude journal 20 April 2021

Gratitude journal

Today I said to my self Here is the light of the new day, oh, there is a new day, ohh there is a new hope, there is a new beginning.

Yesterday I reminded myself of the beauty of my day.

I  have done sautéed vegetables, and they were delicious.
I have completed my workout, even when my back felt a little sore.
My mind didn’t bully my body.
I took a proactive action in a current situation in my life.
I gave myself a noon rest, slept well.
I feel overwhelmed by the events I am living, but this too shall pass.

Tommorrow and after tomorrow are new days, and I will not take them for granted, so I am grateful for the opportunity to look forward for tomorrow.

Gratitude journal 19 April 2021

Gratitude journal
Grateful for being proud of myself and the things I choose to do.

I am proud of my journey.

I am proud of my decisions.

I am proud of my choices.

I am proud of my flaws.

I am proud of my friends.

I am proud of my family.

I am proud of my faith.

I am proud of my awareness.

I am proud of my insights.

I am proud of my past.

I am proud of my fittnes level. I am grateful for the various opportunities I am given along the years to level up, move on, keep going. I am grateful for the gyms that open nearly everywhere. I am grateful for the fitness programs and diets that are designed to fit every person. I am grateful for finding the passion and inspiration that empowers me not to stop. I am grateful for my precious treasure, health.

I am proud of my sense of responsibility. I am grateful for starting to take responsibility for my life recently, which empowers my sense of existing. It is like discovering the fun behind creating everything, planning everything, and being wrong in a lot of things, being right in others. Responsibility is a fearful funny thing, that I am learning to take it seriously but with humor as well.. If things messes up I will start again I will take a deep breath and start again, I will find another way and start again, I will live again..

I am proud of my sense of humor. I am grateful for being able to joke, make people laugh. I am grateful for being given the creativity to make jokes and to put it in the right context, at the right time. I am grateful for my friends who know that when we meet we will not stop laughing. On the other hand I am grateful for the times I am being series, and talking seriously. Actually, I can’t imagine how I can be hilarious in some times, so serious on other times but it happens by nature.

I am proud of my work. I am grateful for the role I play in the massive process of constructing buildings and  whatsoever. I am grateful for the opportunity I was given to study in one of the oldest universities in the country. I am grateful for the beautiful days I spent during being there.

I am proud of my thoughts. I am grateful for my beautiful, creative mind, which generates the thoughts that builds up my life. I am grateful for growing in wisdom. I am grateful that I have a growth mindset, which enables a lot of amazing things to happen in my life. Growth enables confidence, confidence enables doing, doing enables mistakes, mistakes enables learning, learning enables wisdom, wisdom enables growing, growing enables better connection with one’s self, better connection with one’s self enables better connection with the world around me,better connection with the world around me enables more creativity, peace, confidence, congruence.

I am proud of my mistakes. I am grateful for my mistakes, because doing them is the only way to learn.

I am proud of my love to art. I am grateful for being given the opportunity to listen to amazing music, watch beautiful movies, see phenomenal drawings, read blesseful poems,and novels.

I am proud of my routines.

I am proud of my clothes. I am grateful for finding something to wear every day, and in every season.

I am proud of the success been given to me all over the years in many aspects. I am grateful for the doors been open to me, for the struggles I have been through, it all worked for the best.

I am proud of my tears, emotions. Grateful for being emotional at sometimes.

I am proud of my laugh, especially the outloud one, my smile. Grateful for not being ashamed of who I am, how I laugh.

I am proud of my wrinkles.I am  Grateful for aging gracefully.

Things I take for granted.

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Grateful for having a job at this hard time. Grateful for not staying at home, unemployed, for more than 5 years. Grateful for meeting so much lovely people during those years, and making successful friendships that I am sure will last. Grateful my friends who believed I had a chance in those vacancies, My friends Michael, and Sameeh. Grateful for my parents who helped me keep going, and been always there for me when I was disappointed, frustrated, annoyed, by the same way they are here for me at any other time, always listening, caring supporting. Grateful for the things I bought, the fun I had, the places I visited, the people I met there, the life experiences I went through, the meditations , the memories that had been created , the food I ate, that I never felt hungry, the time I enjoyed with someone else, the things I learned,
All of this  because I am getting paid.

The New!

Gratitude journal

The New.

Grateful for
The new blessings
The new day
The new weather
The new sun
The new thoughts
The new actions
The new desires
The new music
The new feelings
The new lessons
The new behaviors
The new friends
The new songs
The new movies
The new tastes
The new smells
The new clothes
The new movies
The new workout routines
The new food recipes
The new news
The new habits
The new applications on my smart phone
The new diets
The new ways of holding a conversation
The new haircuts
The new beginnings
The new choices
The new breath
The new blink
The new heart beat
The new touch
The new hug
The new looks
The new memories
The new places to visit
The new people we meet
The new acts of kindness we do
The new laughs
The new tears
The new sorrows, because they give me tike to feel this pure sensation of grief, I am human, I am able to pass through the hard times, with hard emotions like grief.
The new mysteries about myself, because they give me a lot of Aha moments,Insights.

One Miracle /Second.

Thanks God for giving me a mouth and a tongue, eyes, nose, ears.

I love when I listen to people’s sounds, and recognize them, I love when I listen to my family, dad, mom, aunt, uncle, and tell my self in a second ‘ oh, I love that sound, I love that person, and here I am listening, talking to him’. Seriously, God, how did you do it!!!.
I love when I go back in time and remember my sound when I was young, then in my adulthood, then now. You gave me all those details to surprise me?!.

I love when I remember the sounds I used to listen to every day in my childhood right before going to school when dad used to put the radio on in a particular frequency, to get a particular station, and here it is the same song every day,and I procrastinate to get up, and he comes closer to say my name and wake me up, I still hear it.
Were you planning to bake every magical thing in my memory like this!.

I love how my  grandmother used to say my name, this serenity, peace in her voice when she encourages me to eat one more spoon. I love how she used to look to me, smiling with  this look which says ‘ I love you you tiny creature’, even when I grow up, she didn’t have a different look. I love when she always carry the duty to give me something each time she sees me. Every time she has to get up go to her room, and bring me something to eat, and I still remember the unique type of things she used to give.
Later on my life, after she passed away, I used to buy those things and keep from them  always at home.
Were you planning to give all those people, this love, to spread it away in a ‘look’ or a’ smile’ or a ‘touch ‘?
What is this? Where does your love came from?
Who am I to be so gentle, generous with me like this?

I love when you give me music to listen, and all my senses begin to listen, my heart as well.
I love when you make me feel things I haven’t felt before. Is that what was going in your mind ‘ let me give you another people’s work to be blessed with!, to have fun with!, to think about the magic in this world! to imagine things you never imagined!’.
Seriously, God, how did you do it!!!

I also love when you give my eyes things to see,
I love when I see something from a far distance. I love when I look at the sun, wow, how big is that!, and it gives us all the same warmth and light.
I love when I look to the moon and realize it is an art work, for free, not for sale. I also realize I can spend as long as I want looking at it and smiling when thinking how beautiful it is, a white thing, lighting, a blue thing. So simple, yet so miraculous.

Guess who made the sun? Guess who? It is you.
The celebration of life, the celebration of miracles is  the celebration of you, God you are amazing!. You gave me love, you reach out to me with love, and I will be love.

I love when I look to things and be able to tell what is this. Hey, I can differentiate objects from each others, I can tell the difference between each color. Ohhhh colors! Is it me or just no body knows where on earth would someone think of making things with different colors, not to mention how it is connected to the nature of the things. I understand that you didn’t make any bad thing, but hey what about the devil?.
Yes, you made and you know it, but now when I think about it, it seems hilarious to compare devil and good, from quantity, quality, everything. I think good things in life are more than bad things, but bad things happen, OK I got it, and I thank you for both of them. Actually I prefer to thank you for both, because I don’t like blame, and hatred to be in our relationship, and, of course, you are gentle enough to give  me another, clue, lesson, insight?!. I know you are.

Humor!

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Grateful for yesterday.
Grateful for my delicious cheat meal, which wasn’t that much different from my regular meal.

Grateful for committing to do some hard work during the last two months, because, it confirms that hard work really pays off, and this is a great mindset.

Grateful for humor in my day, and in my life . Grateful for humor in real  conversations between me and coworkers. Grateful for humor with friends over phone. Grateful for humor with my parents. Grateful for humor in  chats with friends, which, when happens spontaneously and from the heart I.e not just putting emoticons, has a marvelous effect in boosting my mood, making me laugh or smile just like that . Grateful for the sense of  humor I share  with my grandfather when we met at the weekends, because he has this unique, old, yet amazingly charming,  and sense of humor, and communicating by that  way is an amazing, blesseful thing to happen.
Grateful for humor with strangers, like funny comments with the cashier, or bus driver. Also, daily life encounters, like funny comments from strangers, that you hear and makes you laugh or smile.
Grateful for humor on TV series, and the creativity it has been baked with.
Grateful for my dad’s sense of humor,  he  makes me laugh by how simple he is, even some times I anticipate the joke, but wanna hear it from him so we  laugh together , this is a  remarkable sensation, to be comfortable taking with someone. Grateful for him being a good listener as well, means he inot judgmental, and he knows that there things I can only learn through doing , so he is not a teacher that teaches by adding more , but by listening to more..

Love is a decision!

Grateful for deciding to share the love with everyone. Grateful for sharing love with coworkers through making the effort to make bonds this kind of interconnection more meaningful . Grateful for sharing love with my parents through being there for them , or at least trying to.
. Grateful for Sharing love with friends. Grateful for for sharing love with myself through my endeavors to know myself, and became MY self not other one’s self or the role I am supposed to play in another person’s life . Grateful for sharing love with my time by using it for the best I can do with it, keeping myself away from instant gratification behaviors, coping mechanisms, which allows me to get more aligned with my goals, undistracted by my ego . Grateful for sharing love with my body through having  adequate sleep, and exercise, nutrition . Grateful for sharing love with my mind through nurturing it with valuable knowledge, and use this knowledge to reflect on myself.

My own superhero!

Being my own superhero makes me feel proud of  my myself on the context of how tiny, small I am and my endeavors, and how unique, whole I feel inside , so I am grateful for being small, for growing, for being wise, for being irrational, for being humble and for listening to my egoistic delusions sometimes. Grateful for the journey I took to realise that I am my superhero.

Grateful for the gift of health. In retrospect, I can  reflect on my physical abilities 5 years ago  and feel grateful for what I am doing, what I have been through. Grateful for the process, any process that puts me in a struggle, because it definitely, eventually helps me grow.

The More!

Grateful that I can persevere. Persevering lead me to believe that I can. Changing my beliefs is a hard process that starts only when I try to understand, change them through perseverance.

Grateful that the more I focus my mind upon the good, the more good comes to my life.
The more I focus on my heath, the more good habits come to my life.
The more I focus on my learning, the more good lessons I learn, not from books, courses, resources only, but from God’s plan to teach me.
The more I focus on good relationships, the more meaningful relationships comes to my life.
The more I focus in being honest, loving person who listens to his ego and shush it sometimes, go with it to the end other times , the more mature I became, and  the more  present, peacful I feel.

Grateful that everything in my life is okay. Grateful for my job, my senses, my body, my soul. Grateful for my friends, my quality time with them. Grateful for my workouts. Grateful for my meals. Grateful for my shoes. Grateful for my socks. Grateful for the invention of underwear :))
Grateful for my arms, my legs. Grateful for my organs.

27 March 2021

Grateful for health, consciousness, eyesight, the ability to move, my senses, as things I take for granted.

Grateful for the Fridays I had rest in, and for the ones I was doing chores, both give me satisfaction at the end of the day.

Grateful for the moment when I take the first sip of my coffee, then I take a bite from my oats omlette, smelling the coxunut oil, and cinnamon. It is like eating in a museum, seeing paintings, and hearing,, from a distance, a slow piano music.

Grateful for the moment when I woke up, and when I go to sleep, as I always remember that I gotta live today in the morning while taking some deep breaths , and that I lived today, and I am looking for tomorrow at the evening.