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Prayer

prayer doesn’t change God, prayer changes me.” I no longer pray for outcomes, for God to change his plan for me. I pray to understand God’s will for me, that I may follow a path to a happier, serene, and fulfilling life. Grace, whether from God or a fellow human, moves me along that path

17 October 2022

Gratitude journal

 Grateful i woke up today happy, healthy, wealthy, worthy, beautiful, grateful,confident, loved, excited about today.

 Grateful for the excitement i have about today’s workout, about today’s learning, about my day at work, about my conversation with dad, about my learning sessions and what they contain of knowledge and experience, and lots of reflections. Grateful i am excited about my daily routines in journaling.

Grateful for my beloved friends who welcome me with a smile and a hug.

Grateful for my uncle, and all the ways he has been he had been supportive with in my life.

Grateful for feeling a little bet scared, and a lot more comfortable in stepping out of my comfort zone.

Grateful for every habit i created, which assured me that i can do anything.

The Weary..

Grateful I woke up today feeling better about my day than yesterday.

 Grateful for two yoga stretches routines I did this morning. Grateful for good night’s sleep so that I was able to woke up energetic.
( Anton Bruckner Sym no. 7 conducted by celibadache)
https://youtu.be/4JBb8MCjm8A
 Grateful for a 4 days vacation with my friends :

– Grateful for experiencing security and safety into God’s hands ( I was able to swim, ride beach buggy, travel for long distance in  a highway)
– Grateful for having lovely friends so we can share love and intimacy and experience  the actions of  integrity and honesty.
– Grateful for having great time with my brother who has been away for a long time. Grateful for his safety and sanity. Grateful for him getting better.
– Grateful for outstanding places in nature God created for us to rejoice in.

Grateful for God’s word to me :
( Beethoven Sym 9, conducted by segui Celibidache)
He gives strength to the weary
                        and increases the power of the weak.

  If I am weary and now I am not so it is God’s strength that is working in me, nothing else..
 If I was weak and now I feel powerful so it is God’s power that is working in me, nothing else..
– God is there for me in bad days, he is here to encourage and give hope. God is here for me.

 He will not grow tired or weary,
                    and his understanding no one can fathom.

The pain..

Gratitude journal
“I am not what happened to me; I am what I choose to become.”

~ Carl Gustav Jung

If there is only one thing I could say it had changed forever it may bey perspective in life, and how God changed how I see the world.

I am grateful for being alive today with this new perspective, and I am not ashamed for living in the dark for years, because the light was there, inside me, but my ego and laziness blocked it away. The light was knowing that I am weak. The light was a acknowledging my shortcomings, not all at once, but once I found a weak point here and there I immediately gave it time to be, to act, to go as far as it can go, then now I am seeing the full scenario, but this time I am gonna find solutions.

I am grateful for the pain I feel between my bones, in this vast area of my body, chest, these stabs right in my heart from the past, from my childhood, from my adulthood.

“I am not what happened to me; I am what I choose to become.”

~ Carl Gustav Jung

The pain that I didn’t feel in the past, but only now, only when I started being compassionate about myself it became  alive again. The stabs are working as alarms for  awareness, like be aware you have been hurt there so try to calm down and grow above, beyond, through the pain, heal, deal with it.

This pain that I know that a massive part of it has been done by myself, and the ones who had been close.

I am responsible for the pain, and I am grateful for  the pain.

“I am not what happened to me; I am what I choose to become.”

~ Carl Gustav Jung

2 October 2022

Gratitude journal

Today I am grateful for woking up happy, healthy, wealthy, worthy, beautiful, confident, loved, excited about today.

Grateful for doing hard things, one step at a time.

Grateful for my new hiking shoes, which will open my heart and mind to new adventures, and take my body to new places.
https://youtu.be/-P_Hg6_yTuk

Grateful for preparing myself for the past 3 years, for someone amazing to enter my world. Grateful for the amazing friends God has given me. Grateful for my faith in God’s plan for me. Grateful for knowing deep deep in myself that i am worthy of the love i seek. I am loved, and i deserve love.

My Town


I am grateful for my town . I am grateful tor the calmness i found while strolling at night ,mostly taking all the streets i used to take hundreds of times ,as if i am telling the ground ‘ hey ,i am there , I am still here ,i love the way we grow up together,i love my memories with you ,and would like to say thank you’ . I am worth it ,every single day . I value my worth .

Less Comparing mind

Today i am grateful for a less exhausted ,more comfortable eyes . I am grateful for a less comparing , complaining mind ,more relaxed thoughts .i am grateful for a less sore muscles ,more active body . I am grateful for the sound of music ,the poignant melodies of Rachmaninoff’s piano ,the melancholy in Bach’s passacaglia ,and the touching emotions in Bruckner’s symphonies. I will let go of my worries ,i will focus my energy in only what i can control .

Today I am smiling. God’s beauty!

Gratitude journal

Today I missed my alarm, but something waked me up. God’s mercy!

Today i have foot on the table. Today i have clothes to wear. Today I am going to my Job. God’s generosity!


Today i have something to learn. Today my brain is working effectively. Today I have lungs, and I am breathing. God’s Creativity!

Today I have ears and I am listening to music. Today i bought Guave. Today i am going to look into the sky and meditate in its colors. God’s fun plans for my senses.


Today i am going to take power naps Today I am planning to go to the gym. God’s way of taking care of my body.


Today I am safe while going to my work, and in my work place. God’s mercy.


Today I am smiling. God’s beauty!

Today I have so many present moments. God’s presence!

Today I have so many past memories. God’s love!

Today I have dreams. God’s vision!



7 September 2022

Gratitude journal

懶 Grateful for the opportunity i am given to develop my skills. Grateful for the ability to  get focused and be ‘ in the flow’ . 

懶Being with 1000s of other people at a concert, that energy is insane. And honestly, just for that time, nothing else matters. The unison of humans can be truly physically overwhelming.

懶 Grateful for that feeling of satisfaction during  the last rep at the last of my workout.

懶The first sip of a mango + Guava juice and tge sensation of the sandy texture of Guava in my tongue  with Mango unique color and flavourful smell.

懶Grateful for the opportunity to jump in the pool in a very hot day. Grateful for the peaceful moments when i float on my back in the pool

懶Grateful for hugging my grandmother when she was alive, and missing her now.. Seeing her in my dreams frequently.

懶 Grateful for the taste of my mom home made desserts.