Gratitude journal

If there is only one thing I could say it had changed forever it may bey perspective in life, and how God changed how I see the world.

I am grateful for being alive today with this new perspective, and I an not ashamed for living in the dark for years, because the light was there, inside me, but my ego and laziness blocked it away. The light was knowing that I am weak. The light was a acknowledging my shortcomings, not all at once, but once I found a weak point here and there I immediately gave it time to be, to act, to go as far as it can go, then now I am seeing the full scenario, but this time I am gonna find solutions.

I am grateful for the pain I feel between my bones, in this vast area of my body, chest, these stabs right in my heart from the past, from my childhood, from my adulthood.

This pain that I didn’t feel in the past, but only now, only when I started being compassionate about myself it became  alive again. The stabs are working as alarms for  awareness, like be aware you have been hurt there so try to calm down and grow above, beyond, through the pain, heal, deal with it.

This pain that I know that a massive part of it has been done by myself, and the ones who had been close.

I am responsible of the pain, and I am grateful fir the pain.